|Friday, October 3rd, 2003|
|Yeah I'm Still Alive
Just in case anyone actually cares! Sorry not in the best of moods lately. I don't know just one of them changes you go through I guess. I'm ready for the group to get back together. I can't believe I'm actually saying that but it's the truth. So guys...whenever you're ready I'm willing. I guess that's all for now. You can chalk this mood up to boredom.
|Tuesday, September 16th, 2003|
|Eventful past few days
I went to the wedding. It was nice. I had a nice time at the reception, I was really glad I got to see my little girl. I didn't realize how much I missed her. I gave Anna and Justin my well wishes. I don't know if he believes me or not yet but I really am happy for them. I'm over the past and I'm looking forward to the future.
Brandon is amazing and he's looking more and more like Kirsten everyday. He's gonna be a mommy's boy *laughs*. Taylor is getting tall, he's growing like a weed and I don't know what to do with him. He has so much energy and can't be involved in to many things. My little Bri has decided she likes boys. That's a little scary but I'll deal with it.
Well I have to take Tay to baseball practice *clicks update
|Saturday, September 6th, 2003|
So I go to LA for a few days, I come back and who is sitting on my bed? None other than my beautiful, wonderful girlfriend. I know we have some things to work through but yeah I still love her. I got to spend some time with my new son and that just made my day. He looks just like his mommy, her red hair and everything. I hope it works this time. I need a stable home life in place right now. I need something good to focus on. I think I might just be happy this time but you never know with me so don't hold your breath.
|Tuesday, August 26th, 2003|
|Time TO Move On....
Kirsten is gone. That's the only thing I can assume. She's gone and took my child with her. Ibeen back and forth in my head: angry, then upset, then angry again. SO I'm sitting here wondering what's keeping me around. Yeah I have the kids but they're young and not in school. I can pick them up and move anytime I want to. The question is....do I want to.
I was thinking about oving back to New York. That's my home and even though my parents are here in Florida I have family there too. It has real seasons I mean I miss snow during the winter. Oh I don't know what I'm going to do...
|Tuesday, August 19th, 2003|
seems to be the general opinion around here....I do what's right, I'm not the one that made her cry this time but somehow I'm still evil and Justin is the hurt little boy that deserves a second chance....everything is right with the world *clicks update and calls his Mom to come pick up the kids from the neighbor's house*
|Tuesday, August 12th, 2003|
|Yep, Time to Fill Ya'll In
So my girlfriend has been MIA. I don't know where she is and that kinda scares me because she's due anytime. Last time I talked to her she was going to visit her parents in Cali. You know I'm watching the news everynight and calling the airlines everyday.
Besides that everything is fine. Bri is enjoying her summer riding classes and Taylor is taking swimming lessons. He needed a break from tennis in this heat.
Speaking of Taylor I need to talk to Anna. He's wondering what happened to his "first mommy". I keep telling her that she still loves him and is thinking about him she's just really busy right now.
I gues that's the short version of what's been going on in my world lately.
|Friday, July 25th, 2003|
|It's been a week
It's already been a week since Challenge For The Children and I'm just getting my energy back. It was a great weekend but I was kind of upset with the other guys. I was the only one out and about so I got the screams of the Nsync fans. I also heard all the "where is Justin" whispers. The skills challenge was fun. I felt bad for Josh though, everyone wanted to see him out there. The basketball game....we lost...that's all that needs to be said there.
After the skills challenge and the game I just enjoyed the parties and the beach with Kirsten. Now I'm in LA for a couple of more days and then I have to make my way back to Florida. Me and Kirsten have to talk about that living arrangements. I don't know how that's going to turn out.
Well I guess that's about it for a minute....I'm out!
|Wednesday, July 9th, 2003|
So me and the kids moved in with Kirsten. It's officially a mad house now. Bri is into everything imaginable; dancing, gymnastics, acting classes, vocal lessons. The girl is about to wear me down. I just feel like I should keep her busy. She doesn't need a lot of free time, she's just like her daddy, she gets in trouble when she's bored.
Tay started his Tennis lessons again. He really doesn't take after his Mom in that talent arena. He's good and determined, that's such a great combo.
Kirsten has adapted to her new role *laughs* whatever that may be. I don't know, person that keeps me and my two kids on schedule. She gets them fed, dressed, and all that jazz.
I've been thinking a lot lately about this new album we're supposed to be doing. I've been writing a lot. It really helps me to just put all my thoughts out there on paper. I'm just wondering if any of it will make the album this go around. I guess we'll just have to see won't we. Like so many things in life.....
|Saturday, June 28th, 2003|
*sits up on his bed and opens his laptop up* I just came back from visiting Kirsten in London. It was an experience alright. She's a sweet and thoughtful girl. I'm glad I could help her enjoy some of her time in London. *laughs* Room service is a good thing.
I have Fame that I'm doing and working on this new album so that's kept me kinda busy. The kids are involved in a billion activites so I'm trying to keep up with their schedule too. My parents and security have been great with helping me take care of them.
I *laughs* hear them calling me. I should get going. *clicks update*
|Friday, June 20th, 2003|
|Back & Forth
For anyone that was wondering and cares....I'm home from the hospital. Thank you to the visitors....I appreciated the caring gestures. It always feels good to have someone worry about me, I haven't had that much lately.
So I've been hanging out with Kirsten....yes she is my new girlfriend. We decided we're gonna take this thing slow. I'm kinda iffy about jumping into another relationship. We're taking it day by day though and she really is a sweetheart. The kids hung out with her a few days ago and they love her to pieces. They get attached to people so easily.
My little dream chaser, thank you for everything and I promise to do what is in your best interest from now on. Just have patience with me okay. You can't blame me for my thoughts now can you?
|Friday, June 13th, 2003|
|Hotel life isn't it wonderful...
I guess I should be used to it now huh? Well I'm out here in LA doing this show called Fame. It's actually been really fun. Some of the kids are really talented. Debbie Allen is an amazing person. I love working with her. I can't believe I was picked to host the show with her. Somtimes I forget that I am a celebrity cause I get so wrapped up in my personal life.
Speaking of my personal life....I went out with Kirsten Dunst a few nights ago. It was nice, I had to introduce her to one of my favorite resturants. I haven't talked to her lately.I don't know who's fault that is.
I guess that's it for me for right now. I gotta get some sleep. *clicks update*
|Wednesday, May 21st, 2003|
|Busy Busy Busy
That's the way my life has been. There has been a lot going on lately, it's been kinda crazy. I'm working on this new TV show and I'm working on this album. I thought I was going to have a nice size break after the show's run was over but that's not happening.
I've been trying to keep up with the kids but they've been with Kelly a lot. Yes...my ex Kelly. She's been a great help actually and I'm greatful for that. She broke up with that guy she was seeing and she's trying to be a better Mom to Bri and a friend to Tay. He's a little charmer and she fell in love with him once she allowed herself to.
It's been a long adjustment period for this house. I'm honestly 100 precent over Anna and fine with her relationship with Justin but I have two kids that I'm trying to help through this change. Bri, even though she tries to act tough to protect her Daddy, misses Anna. I know she does. Taylor...I'm trying to help him understand why his Mommy lives somewhere else and why Olivia doesn't live with us anymore. I think he's understanding slowly....I think we all wish could go in a time machine and go back a year.
|Wednesday, April 23rd, 2003|
yep I heard about the baby.....and I'm okay with it. It's kinda wierd but I'm okay with it. So J you have two kids with her now, what are you going to do.
Anna came by yesterday and we took Taylor and Bri swimming, I had fun watching them get so excited about seeing their friends. It was good to hang out with Anna for a little bit. I guess we are on the reight track. We have to become friends again somehow.
Lets see other than me being a single dad there isn't much going on in my life. I'm wondering if I should go back up to my place in New York for awhile. A week break might do it...
|Tuesday, April 1st, 2003|
For anyone that wants to know. I'm just fine for anyone that wants to know.
I guess everyone know by know Olivia isn't my biological daughter. That news took me for a loop. I talked to Justin and Anna though. They still haven't been able to rationalize this whole thing to me but I've accepted it as best as I can.
that part of my life is settled and I'm moving on....it's not always easy but it must be done
sssooooooooooooooo Joesph Anthony Fatone is now single
|Monday, February 3rd, 2003|
...that's all I have to say. Tony is mad at me. Justin is pissed off and Anna is upset with me.....
Anna was in a car accident, I went straight to the hospital and was the first person there. Justin showed up which I expected. After I talked to Anna, which didn't go to well, I left. When I looked back at the two of them...I'm so stupid. I'm done trying to get her back. It doesn't matter anyway. I called my sister she's going to watch the kids and I'm going away for a few days.
|Wednesday, January 29th, 2003|
|The day after....
thanks for the birthday wishes. I got some nice gifts from the kids and thanks for the car Anna. I'll be flying down the road soon enough.
Well it's a new year for me so I have some birthday resolutions...
1. Forget about the past and let Justin and Anna be. Everyone breaks up and moves on don't they.
2. Attempt to forgive Justin and try to rebuild our friendship.
3. Find someone that makes me happy and accepts me for me.
I guess that's about it. My birthday was good and I'm happy.
|Tuesday, January 21st, 2003|
|*logs into his own journal*
Taylor's birthday was yesterday. I have an amazing son. He's so friendly and outgoing. I just hope he gets everything he wants out of life. He's going to be a little charmer for sure. I'll have to warn all the little girls about him.
After the kids were settled at my sisters me and Anna went to talk for a little bit. I guess it went okay but now I know that I need to just move on. That's all I'm going to say about that.
Otherwise I guess my life is alright. I'm in a little daze right now but I'll get past it.
|Friday, January 17th, 2003|
So I read through Anna's journal entries. Apparently she's more in love with Justin than I ever thought she was.
Once the screaming was over we curled up on my bed and just talked. I guess I have to be happy with that, us being able to talk without screaming at each other.
I can't lie though it still hurt to read her journal entries. Justin is the perfect man for her now. Me and Justin got into it yesterday too but I understand his feelings too...I'm not mad at him, he's just being Justin. I just wish he could see my point of view.
I also was told about her and Chris....guess I shouldn't be mad if no one else is. It's not my business anymore is it.
*reads back over his entry and laughs* I just have to spare people's feelings don't I. *clicks update*
|Wednesday, November 27th, 2002|
|My Random Thoughts....
- I need to wash my hair
- Anna is beautiful and amazing and I would never give her up
- the feel of Anna's legs wrapped will be something I never get used to
- boats are good
- cops are bad
- tacos are good
- I hope Taylor is holding up okay having to stand his own ground against his sister
- the disney store is addictive
That's it! *clicks post and signs off*
|Thursday, November 21st, 2002|
*lays on the chair in the hospital curled up with a blanket watching Anna rest. The conversation from last night running through his head*
you scared me baby you scared me so bad. Don't ever do that again
but I came back...remember
Was Justin right? Did I cause this? I came back though! Not even five minutes later I came back. She was the one that told me it was over. I'm not going to let that happen though, I'm going to stay right here with her until she's better and I'm going to get my wife back. *sighs and looks over at her* I love you Anna.